Last year I came to the ashram to become a healer. I took the program, initiation, got a healing stick. I can not tell that I did a lot of healings though because I still had doubts but of course I used it in all emergency situations and it worked every time (?!)
Anyway, I had that strong feeling that I am going to heal only if someone asks (another passive ego form I guess). So I came here with the same idea. Several people asked for healing and I did it. I felt the energy much better than before but a couple of days ago something special happened.
A girl asked me for healing. I started the usual way and then the boundary between her body and mine disappeared, it was just one energy getting connected to a higher energy. Amazing experience. I had hard time stopping the experience. She said that she was in deep meditation during the healing and thought that the mediation was a result of healing and I thought that such success of healing was a result of the mediation mood. In any event, she is all better and I know now what it is when there is a connection and no boundaries.