SPIRITUALITY, ART, NITHYANANDA

Christmas 2012 What an awful day it was for me today  Why?  Because I was all about me, my suffering, my emotions.  I was not living for others.  I was all about feeling my pain. My husband left us for the second time this year.  The first time was several years ago, and it was close to holidays. It was such a shock and so much pain that it was almost the feeling of being numb through the whole thing. Kids and I went to friends for two days in a row, and it helped us through the holidays.  By next Christmas, I already met my Guru.  Thank you, dear  God!  Suffering was gone. My ex-husband then came back, and I took him back without any conditions, trial periods, whatever.  I was so happy to have a family back together.  He came back as if he never left but only with a lot of anger and meanness.  It was as though he was mad at me that he came back.  Three years later he left again. This Christmas is the first one when I am sure my family life of 22 years is gone.  It will never be b

From 2010... Paramahamsa Nithyananda is going to a Bangalore Court  to officially declare that he is God.  He says if they want to argue, he would enjoy a debate.  He says  this is the land of Advait  God realization is a birth right of every human. He follows Upanishad that every human being is God.  He also will create a precedent to help enlighten Masters who are under different attacks in India nowadays.  He tries to inspire Indians to protect their culture and rich traditions instead of following somebody elses.  I am sure he will create and actually already has created a lot of tension.  Along with tension he will create inspiration.  It feels that awakening is happening in the society.  We will see what comes out of this. This whole thing reminded me about the movie "Miracle on the 34th street" and how New York was voting if  Santa existed or not.  New Yorkers decided that yes, Santa was real and it was their right to believe and they won the trial in the movie

From the Fall 2010.  Returning from the ashram after LEP (Living Enlightenment Program) I opened my computer on the plane after leaving the ashram to make notes about my last few days in the program.  It is always great to write down things right away  before beautiful things fade away .  When I   opened my computer the note popped up:             RADIATE your Enlightenment. Live Enlightenment.               You are now divine Ambassador, and He is always with you.                                     So what is there to worry about???? I did not write that note and this note did not get mystically on my computer.   I made a great friend there, I wrote about this young fellow several times. His name is Paul, he is my son's age.     He just wanted to remind me...

The biggest one is that not a single fear or incompetency of yours will stay untouched. You will need to clean all the mess and learn all that you are teaching your children to do.  Every time I say that I am not good at something I end up doing exactly the thing that  I was trying to avoid.  To give you an example,  I really never liked Math.  Maybe I did not spend enough hours practicing it but I was always convinced that it is not my subject and there was no way i would ever understand it.  When my son was little I gave the task of helping him with Math to my husband and when it did not work out I found different Math programs (although he just got his Bachelor with majoring in Math and minoring in Physics).  Anyway, now my daughter is in six grade and I am still avoiding her math homework.   I was speaking to a friend of mine who is a full time volunteer in the ashram now.  She is putting different amazing programs together.  The plan is to create a website with a lot of less

I did a workshop last year in New York City.  Women were funny and very creative.  One was a shoe maker.  She was in her late fifties and she  told some funny stories about her childhood. When we were having lunch and the time for a desert came, she said: "When I was little, I never got deserts.  You do not get treats because you ATE!"  :)

It was a confusing question for me when I was asked what religion I belong to since at that time I did not know that my way of thinking actually exists as a religion as well.     I used to say: “I am spiritual but do not belong to any one particular religion or   I am a Buddhist but I still believe in Jesus." My daughter and son used to ask for one simple way to answer the question and the above written sentence was all I could come up with. If you are like me and think that there is more than one way to God, you would be happy to know that there is a name for it.   It is called Vedic Tradition.   And thank God that now I finally have a name for what I believe in.   I can celebrate Jesus and I can celebrate Buddha and I do not feel that I am betraying anyone. My Master Paramahamsa Nithyanada gave me that beautiful truth and Hinduism gives that opportunity to just celebrate God in all different expressions. How can you really compare Incarnations, how is it possible

I wanted to put together some memories.  The whole experience was deep and  sweet.  I can not say that we joked around.  It was a gentle and soft experience.  One day we danced though.  Imgine, night in the town where all are sleeping and in one house on the hill the lights are up and five people are dancing in the middle of the night... Anyway, here are some more stories  Fire Ritual At the end of the program we needed to have a fire.  I have a very nice fire pit in my backyard.  The fire started easily and when it was all burned, a light rain put the fire out as if the God of Fire was watching it. Swamiji and TV One time we were talking what was the right way of doing completion after the end of the program. Some confusion was present.  At that moment the TV turned itself on (no joke) and the group on the screen was in the middle of a discussion and the fist sentence we heard was :"So remember the question was how to continue competing when we are at home"... and  the

Ten days of Swamiji's support and blessings; ten days of energy darshans, ten days of yoga and kryas and working through what seemed to be out endless in-completions,  Many patterns were exposed and broken in everyone.  Many unforgettable moments happened.   Inner Awakening took place in my Sparta home.  What is Inner Awakening?  Inner Awakening is exactly that, Inner Awakening.   After it happens in you, your whole being feels lighter and at peace, your whole being is ready to LIVE. First part of Inner Awakening that we were doing was on completion with our history,  completion with images we carry about ourselves inside and outside.  In other words, liberation. Have you noticed how many times the same situations will appear in our lives, same diseases will show up again and again, same conflict situations will come up.  Same, same, old same.   If we are aware and already at the level of realization that if we want outer change we better work on our inner space we look i